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[THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE POSTED LIKE, A WEEK AGO. SO SORRY FLIST.]

First- ok. Wait for it. Wait for it...

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Now. GRADUATION!!!! I'm no longer in high school. Four years of pain and torture has finally ENDED. It has been great, but IT ALSO SUCKED AT TIMES. And now. It's over. HALLELUJAH.




To all my friends- stay in touch or I'll stalk you down and killlllll  you. Ok?


Since I have not written anything for months, here's a quick overview:

-I'm working on a topsecret webcomic, but not really. (As in, I'm neglecting working on it, and it's not very secrety.)
-I'M GOING BACK TO CHINA FOR THE SUMMER. ENVY ME.
-Achaea is great. Like, beyond great. 
-HETALIA. It alternates between making me cry "OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK" and laughing my ass off. Sometimes, the two reactions overlap. It's strange. I love it so much. Everyone needs to check it out (and FEAR RUSSIA. And France. Frankly, at this point, I don't know which scares me more.)
-I have watched more movies in the past month than I have in two effing years. That's sad. 
-Photoblog! Ask me for the password and the site, and if I like you, I'll give it to you.
-Fuck. 13hr plane flight.
-PROUD TO ANNOUNCE I WILL BE ATTENDING CMU IN THE FALL (provided they don't rescind my acceptance. ToT)

Now, I must used the overly used-

WHY JENNIFER???????????? (Boo to all non-KAT-TUN fans who do not understand the awesome inside joke)

Life is crap to the nth power at the moment. COLLEGE APPLICATIONS? I WILL SOMEDAY INVENT A MACHINE TO DECIMATE THEM. Gaahhhhh. Also, KAT-TUN news? JE in general? I am totally out of the loop. I have not checked the community in months. =' [

So, I'm apparently retarded or something. I apply to 4 art schools, two of which have specific rage-inducing hometests, in addition to a fashion school which will chain me to my sewing machine until January. Again, WHYYYYY?????? Because, I am a masochist, obviously. Now, I am at the studio EVERY FUCKING DAY. IT'S SO PATHETIC. This also explains my absence from LJ. I know, I am ashamed. College>LJ? Blasphemy!

My days have been filled with charcoal and bitter tears, guys. I wail dramatically at you.

On a happier note, some rays of sunshine in my miserable world.

1. I AM PERFORMING PIANO. I NEVER PERFORM. IT WILL BE NERVEWRACKING AND HEART ATTACK INDUCING AND SO HORRIBLY WONDERFUL.

2. Gonna attempt to publish a manga. Well, once I can spend three minutes out of the art studio, away from the a;dlkfj;wljeflRAWR portfolio pieces. Is anyone awesomely amazing at Japanese and/or lives in Japan? I want to give publish it in Japan, because the audience there is so much more forgiving.

3. New friends, whooo~. =D But recently, I've been reflecting deeply on my high school life. (Yes, shocking.) I came to a conclusion- "I might never see these guys again, and I will miss them terribly and beat myself up over it in the future, so I must make friends with the people I want to make friends with NAO." That's my senior year mission.

[this is a paraphrase of a blog entry from a very old blog]

People are disgusting. I believe this and so do many others. However, only the extremely ignorant (or arrogant) can criticize other people without understanding that they are actually also criticizing themselves.

People disgust me. I'm not saying that I feel contempt towards them. Merely that what they do make me feel sick to my stomach. Their mannerism (or lack thereof), their hypocrisy, their selfishness, their bragging, or worse, their 'backwards modesty' ("Oh, I'm so bad at this, but somehow, I got #1! I wonder how that happened?"). I'm so tired of it all. The way people try to talk about things that they know nothing about, or how they advise people on things which they have no experience with... It all makes me want to become a hermit and live in some obscure tiny forest.

But, don't I do those things as well? I have often pretended to hate people who I liked, I have given plenty of baseless advice, I look out for myself more than others, and hypocrisy is quite commonplace in my life. Considering this list, I look at this horrible population and I have to think-- "This is where I belong." I'm no better or worse than any of them. We're all the same, same faults and virtues, same passions and secrets.
I used to think everyone was very special, so distinct. However, I realized that this was the result of me putting people in stereotypes (thanks to excessive reading and drama watching). In real life, people aren't so unique. We share parts. We're all made of qualities which come from a common pile. It's just the order and amount that differs between people. Like differing computers, we all operate to achieve the same tasks, with approximately the same components, but with slightly different specs. Faster, lighter, more attractive, more energy conserving... But, all using the same basic parts and blueprints.

For example, if a movie such as Pirates of the Carribean becomes popular, and one character such as Jack Sparrow becomes popular, many people will obsess over the character. Nothing wrong with fangirling/fanboying. However, what becomes an issue is that, sadly, some people believe that they are the only one. Special. The "Ultimate" fan. Mrs Sparrow. (Or Mrs House. Mrs -replace with any character in any fandom-) They end up thinking that they are an "expert" on the person/character, or that the character is actually "friends" with them. What they don't realize, so blinded by their selfishness, is that tons of other people have the exact same obsessive mindset.

Often, something happens which leaves me furious. I start thinking on the path to destruction: No one understands how I feel. Then, later, I would look back and go "What the HELL was I thinking? Of course people understand! They've all gone through what I just had. I'm just one of them. They've felt the exact same frustration or pain, so who am I to be dramatic, insisting that I'm so special that my pain should deserve their attention? Isn't that both ignorant and arrogant of me?"

No matter what happens, there is always someone out there who has been through the same thing. That person may be somewhere on the other side of the globe, or they might be standing next to you right now. When you snap "you don't understand!" or "you don't know what I'm going through!" maybe you're right. But in most cases, guess what? Maybe they DO know. Maybe they got dumped yesterday, too. Maybe they lost a parent, too. To say things like that, you're claiming to know all about the other person.

So. To say that you're unique- absolutely unique- even for a second... To me, that's the epitome of ignorance.

+1 GREATEST IMPOSSIBLE WISH
Background music during intense moments. Preferably, my music. > ]

I am currently writing my Comparative Government essay, and I must say, democracy is one hell of a topic to write about.

On a separate note, I had the weirdest dream. I got a phone call from MARU. Who spoke fluent English. With a heavy accent, but still, FLUENT. UNDERSTANDABLE (non-KATTUN fans do not 'understand' that pun. I am relying now on encoded_panties to call me on that.) We talked about really random stuff, like how he never changes his hairdo. He told me that he liked how Junno's hair looked right now, and that Junno was nice, but couldn't sing. But Junno was good at art (??? I guess not drawing, since we all saw how that was in CKT.) And then he told me to give him my LJ address and that he'd check it from his cellphone from time to time.

After hanging up, I realized that I really wanted to ask him about the perm that Kame once had.

Edit: I also forgot (!!!) to give him my LJ, actually. Am I not retarded today?
Edit: He gave me his phone number. I only remember that it had a 9 and a 4 in it. Haha, I totally should have just forced myself to wake up and write it down. I would call it just to see if my subconscious is amazing like that.

After waking up, I realized that I have not watched Cartoon KAT-TUN in like, two months now. And that I have not been active in their fandom at all these past few weeks. Maru made me feel semi-guilty. I'M SORRY, NAKAMARU. SCHOOL IS KILLING ME ATM.


Anyways, on a more sane level, I really need to get back to work. I wish I could go on for paragraphs about democracy like I can about random shit on my LJ.

[BECAUSE I AM TOO TIRED TO FORM ACTUAL SENTENCES. INSTEAD, I WILL BOLD RANDOM THINGS. AND PROVIDE ONE WORD ANSWERS.]

( Huge Long 'WTF is this?' Meme )
( 7 Deadly Sins )

Why does this always happen?

renmnx is intense.

You're no-nonsense, to the point, working all the time, looking to die an early death in a bathroom somewhere when your body finally gives out. Way to go.

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Stolen meme from ankeelv2

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=D REPOST PRZ

Was watching Suppli/Sapuri and there's this idea there that interested me. Digging. More specifically, digging in your brain. When there's no inspiration, writing a thousand slogans. Forcing yourself to your creative max. Sooooo, I decided to do some random slogans.

For our school, LGHS:

1. You only have four years.
2. If it has a town named after it, it must be amazing.
3. Rooms full of memories.
4. Where you sit down to make the most of your life.
5. Teaches you to smile.
6. Dare you to find better teachers.
7. We make it beautiful, it makes us grow.
8. How would you represent the most beautiful school in the county?
9. You won't want to miss a second of these classes.
10. Don't wait to miss it.
11. Public in price, private in quality.
12. Remember each door and each desk.
13. When people see it and say, "that's gorgeous," we can say, "that's my school."


Bento Lunches:

1. Look forward to a warm welcome when you're most tired.
2. Edible art.
3. Arrange your life, one bite at a time.
4. Express yourself every meal.
5. Be the center of attention while enjoying each bite.
6. Food + Art = Happiness
7. First, Japan brought us flower arrangement. Now, bentos.
8. What you like and nothing else.
9. Paint a picture with soy sauce and ketchup.
10. Think outside the box, eat inside the box.
11. A bento for every idea.
12. Health has never looked so appetizing.
13. If you are what you eat, eat beautiful.


All right. Now, tell me which ones you liked!